It's the guilt that keeps me going

I killed you that day

Standing on a cliff I watched you fall
-helpless-, you were.

Tears gathered
(that I will admit)
But I couldn't will them to leave

They would be all I had left
The last thing you had given me

I cursed your name in the wind
Cursed you for what -you- had done

You died that day

I remember killing you

At least the part of you
I had the misfortune of knowing

Less poetry more 'jarble of thoughts put together in stanzas because they seem easier to read than sentences"

It was the faintest whisper
that brought me to you

One small line amidst countless others
Twisting and tangling together

Intertwining voices
Making such an inaudible mess
There was so much noise
I feared no single line could be discerned
From the cacophony of voices

As I sat there
Waiting silently
I heard a sound rise above the others
It wasn't the loudest
Neither was it the softest
Yet I distinctly remember hearing it

It called to me unlike any of the others
And After a short time I could make the line out
At which point I held fast
For I feared I might lose it among the others

And though holding on to it is comparable
to fighting the strongest ocean current

This whisper seems worth it

Get up

You are wasting away out there
Calmly watching the ink dry
You wrote that paper a lifetime ago
The ink just isn't dry yet

In dreadful or fair weather
You sit
watch
wait

Who are you to do such a thing

Albeit at times I am tempted
to join

You were a feather in my dream.

I am careful with you/
Indeed I have to be/
Tread lightly around the edges/
And make sure not to disturb the middle/

I even hold my breath at times/
For I fear even the faintest breeze/
May send you away/

However harmless it may be/
I calculate everything/
Especially words/
They seem to carry the most weight/
And I do not mean to offend/

...I think

We are seperated

We are seperated
Lying between us a sea of time
Were it so easy I would let down these sails
Set my course for where you are
Were it so easy...

Too much in the way
If not just this giant sea
Treacherous waters
Whirlpools and storms
I'd battle them I would

Yet in the end I fear
Crossing a sea of time
A dangerous one at that
Would take far too long

My goal lies in the opposite direction
I can cross no sea of time
For you see
I simply have none

For you at least

Look both ways...

A forward thought
Flashed in those eyes

We all saw it

We new the decisions you would make
Some even tried to warn you

You wouldn't be stopped by any force

A forward thought
A backwards walk
A head in the clouds

You never saw the car

But you sure felt it

Thoughts plague me. Words leave me.

I fear we have grown distant
You and I

I wrote

You were too busy

It seems impossible to reach you

Yes I see you
And yes we talk

But this facade we maintain
Isn't fooling anyone (certainly not me)

It seems we are seperated

An iron wall perhaps?
No
A glass wall would be more fitting

We can see clearly
We can talk clearly
But we will never truly connect

I'd cross
But I think
You'd be the death of me